Dawn |
Your Sis Michelle |
Your Sis Michelle |
Buddy, January 1, 2011
Well Happy New Year big brother!!!! I wanted to be the first to wish you that!!!! I am sure you all are up there celebrating it together.... Just so sad that you are not here once again to celebrate with us... Hope you are watching over us all from up there in heaven.... Love ya and miss you bunches....
Mom |
Your Sis Michelle |
Buddy, December 5, 2010
This is what we had put on your card at the funeral home and I think about it alot so I decided to post it on here...
Miss Me- But Let Me Go
When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me
I want no rites in a gloom- filled room
Why cry for a soul set free?
Me me a little- but not too long
And not with your head bowed low
Remember the love that we once shared
Miss me- but let me go
For this is a journey that we all must take
And each must go alone
It's all a part of the master's plan
A step on the road to home
When you are lonely and sick at heart
Go to the friends we know
And bury you sorrows in doing good deeds
Miss me- but let me go
I think this is what we all should read and remind ourselves everyday...
Love and Miss you alot!!!
Your Sis Michelle |
Another cold winter is apporaching fast and another month without you here with us. I hate the thought of on the holiday's your not here to share them with us and how much it hurt's still to celebrate it. We have to go on though for our kid's and yet it still feel's like we are doing it dragging our feet and kicking and screaming all the way. I just don't know how people say it get easier with time cause it don't you just learn to live with a heavy heart and keep going for everyone else's sake around you, trying to be strong but it's so so hard.. This family has went to shit since everyone has started dying... All the fighting and hurtful thing's people say all for what to try to hurt someone that you love and is your family, I guess it's to try to make them feel better about themselves or something. The best thing to do for me is just disconnect, if only you were here how you would shake your head and be like f them all. You come to know who your real family is and I am so thankful I have my family that love's me for me and don't judge me or shame me for the thing's that have happened in my life... To all my REAL FAMILY I LOVE YOU ALL!!! Well big brother just stay close and be our gruardian angel!!!! I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!
Mom |
Your Sis Michelle |
Buddy, September 15
I don't know where the time has gone. Another season has gone and we are starting a new one and getting closer to winter. All the kid's are in school now and my day's are so boring now... You know it really sicken's me how people are.. It make's me mad that some people don't even know what day you died on.... I miss and love you so much...
mom |
WELL BUDDY IT CLOSE TO THE FIVE YEAR MARK, AND I DON'T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT THAN THE FIRST DAY. I KNOW THAT I AM ALWAYS ON EDGE BUT I JUST CAN'T HELP IT. I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE I AM ABOUT TO LOSE MY MIND AND SOMETIMES I JUST WISH I WOULD HURRY UP AND DO IT SO I COULD GET IT OVER WITH. I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US ALL WE JUST ALL GO SOMEWHERE TOGETHER AND JUST CHILL LIKE WE USED TO DO.
I HAD FLASHBACK THE OTHER DAY A SONG WAS PLAYING AND I SAW YOU DANCING TO IT LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID WHEN YOU WERE ACTING SO CRAZY. i WOULS EVEN BE GLAD TO CLEAN UP YOUR PUKE LIKE I ALWAYS DID WHEN YOU DRANK LIQUER AND JUST HAD TO "SPIT" LOL WE SURE HAD SOME GOOD TIMES ALL OF AND I WOULDN'T TRADE IT FOR ANYTHING GOOD OR BAD.IT WAS OUR TIME AND I LOVED IT.I WISH I COULD HAVE MADE ALOT MORE MEMORIES WITH YOU BUT THE LORD SAW THINGS DIFFERENTLY. I WILL SEE YOU ON SUNDAY I LOVE YOU AND HOPE TO SEE YOU AT THE GATE TO MEET ME AND MERL, I LOVE YOU
Your Sis Michelle |
BUDDY, AUGUST 6, 2010
GOSH IT WILL BE 5 YEAR'S THAT YOU HAVE BEEN GONE ON SUNDAY AUGUST 8TH. IT DON'T SEEM LIKE IT HAS BEEN THAT LONG. TIME FLY'S AND YET THE WOUND'S ARE STILL SO FRESH LIKE IT ALL IS STILL JUST A DREAM... I REALLY WISH IT WAS A DREAM, I WISH I WOULD WAKE UP AND YOU BE HERE. I FEEL LIKE I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER YOUR LAUGH.. ALL THIS SHIT NEED'S TO STOP IT IS ALL TOO CRAZY THING'S ARE BEING SAID THAT SHOULDN'T BE SAID AND MOM IS JUST ON EDGE ABOUT EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. I WISH YOU WAS HERE. JUST SEEM'S LIKE ANYMORE PEOPLE ARE ONLY OUT TO TRY TO HURT EVERYONE ELSE AND IT JUST STUPID AND THAT'S WHY I STAY AT HOME. NO NONSENSE HERE. I WISH ALL YOU GUY'S WERE HERE WITH US. WE ARE GONNA COME TO THE GRAVEYARD ON SUNDAY TO PUT FLOWER ON ALL YOUR GRAVE'S. I JUST HATE THE RIDE THERE IT SEEM'S LIKE YOUR DRIVING TO SARROW AND ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS CRY AND I GET A BIG KNOT IN MY THROAT. NO ONE SHOULD EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THAT THIS FAMILY HAS BEEN THROUGH AND YET WE ARE STILL GOING DON'T KNOW HOW BUT WE ARE AND IT NEVER SEEM'S TO GET ANY EASIER BUT YET WE STILL GET UP EVERY MORNING AND GO ABOUT OUR DAY BECAUSE WE HAVE TO. WE HAVE TO GO ON FOR OUR KID'S AND OTHER FAMILY.... I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AND I MISS YOU ....
Mom |
Mom |
your sis michelle |
Buddy, July 22, 2010
Man it's hard to believe that 10 year's ago today you walked me down the isle to be married to Tim. I have alway's thought so much of you for doing that. You didnt have to but you did, you stepped up and did it cause dad wouldn't do it and I was so upset cause I had no one to walk me down the isle but I asked you to do it and you said yes... I am sad and happy all at the same time, sad because when I think about it now knowing you are not here it make's me cry, and happy that I am still married. I really wish thing's would have turned out so different, but they didn't and I still really don't believe your gone but you are and I still have so many question but no answer's and just really wish you were here. Why did you have to go, hell why did any of you have to go. I miss all of you so much and thing's seem like they never get any easier. I thought it was supposed to get easier as time goes!! I have so much hate and saddness. I love you and miss you so much!!!!!
JERRIE DALE 7-12-10 |
YOUR SIS MICHELLE |
Buddy,
Happy 4th of July big brother.. I miss all of you guy's up there and wish you all were here to share this day with us.... Thing's are alway's so crazy down here... I just don't know anymore. I worry about myself and my family and let everyone else do whatever... I love and Miss you so much and wish you were still here to spend these day's with us....
YOUR SIS MICHELLE |
Buddy,
Was thinking about you today, like I do everyday and miss you so much!!!! I so wish you were here and I wish I could just hear your voice or see you one last time..... I am so upset I am sure you know what about.... I just don't understand thing's and people and why they are the way they are.... Maybe I am not supposed to but I try and it just get's me more madder then what I already am... I am gonna go swimming and just forget about it all.... I will be thinking about you today when I am sitting by the water's edge with Tim and the kid's... I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your Sis Michelle |
Buddy,
Well I wanted to tell you Happy Memorial Day big brother. I hope you all are having fun up there. I know you guy's won't get too crazy up there cause grandma is up there and she will keep you all in line. I guess summer is finally here and the hot days feel so good but I miss you being here with us. We had gramp's memorial service today nothing fancy and I think that's how he would have like it... Tim gave you a beer today but man you were drinking it awfully slow hope you didn't get too drunk off it.... I love and miss you so much and just watch over all of us and keep us safe...
Sara |
Shirley Ann |
Danette |
hey buddy we all miss you so much along with everyone else we lost, it weighs heavy on our hearts because there has been so many. do me a favor and hug them all for me and give them all a kiss from me and everyday i ask god to get me through another day to teach me how to deal with all this pain and sorrow. I just wish everyone would stop getting on here and fighting cause this isint the place to do it, this is where we come when we need to talk and grieve and talk about all the good memories of you. Please help everyone find some peace because anger will eat them up and that is not a good thing to happen to anyone. we all love and miss you so much, Love ya buddy,
Love Aunt Danette
samantha |
MomAnd Merl. |
Your Sis Michelle |
Buddy, January 2, 2010
Well we have started a new year! Where does the time go? Nobody was really with nobody to celebrate it though. We counted down the ball and that was pretty much it. Just seem's like everything is so different and isn't going to ever be the same. I know I am blessed and thank god everyday for my family and that we are still all together. I sit around and think that people just don't realize that you could be here today and gone tomorrow. All my kid's were happy on Christmas day when they got up and got what they wanted. Love you and miss you guys.
Danette |
Hey buddy I just wanted to say we all miss you so much, it will be christmas in a couple more days and i just wanted to tell you merry christmas and I love you, tell jeremy and doug and gramps I love and miss them too.
Love always Danette
Your Sis Michelle |
Buddy,
We has Thanksgiving dinner at mom and Tina's but no one was there but me, Tim,mom and dad, and the kid's. It was so weird not having gramp there carrying on and all. I miss all you guy's so much. Thing's are never going to be the same ever. I was glad I got to spend Thanksgiving with my family for once But I could have did without dad's bitching at me, but I guess that's what parent's do. I want to put up my Christmas tree but I just feel so bad and so sad cause you aren't here and gramp isn't here to celebrate it with us. I find myself wanting to talk to someone and wanting to call gramp but then I remember that he's not here. I know Alex misses him so much, he talk's bout him alot and I feel so bad because he loved gramp more than anything. He misses going over there every weekend and spending time with gramp.I love and miss you guy's alot.....