Buddy,

Hey big brother just thought I would sit down to write you a little letter since I got a moment of peace which that doesn't happen to often. Mom and Danette was suppose to come up to stay today but I couldn't go get them I was alittle upset cause dad wouldn't let me use his car but oh well. I think everybody is struggling these day's everything is getting so expensive. Well David Lee died the other day it just seem's like everybody is dying it don't matter the age. I don't understand it. I feel so bad for those kid's cause I know what they feel. It is hard to loose someone you love. It is starting to get cooler at night now and the day's aren't so warm anymore but it is still nice outside pretty soon it will be snowing. I have to come visit you again before the snow fly's. All the kid's are growing up so fast seem's like time is flying by and I don't know where it is going. None of them know how to listen to nothing and they are all little smart butt's that always have something to say. Well I am gonna go for now, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. You are gone from us but will NEVER NEVER NEVER ever be forgotten.

                                   Michelle

HEY BUDDY THINKING ABOUT YOU TODAY. SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER AND WINTER IS COMING FAST .TIME JUST KEEPS MARCHING ON  LAST TIME I WAS OUT THERE THE ROSE BUSH I PLANTED DIDN'T LOOK TO GOOD. CEDRIC TOOK A STICK AND BEAT IT PRETTY GOOD .I SURE HOPE IT WILL COME BACK AGAIN NEXT YEAR. I WILL HAVE TO COVER IT UP BEFORE WINTER SO THE ROOTS DON'T DIE ON IT.AS LONG AS THE ROOTS DON'T FREEZE IT SHOULD COME BACK IN THE SPRING. WELL I WILL WRITE SOME MORE LATER SAY HELLO TO JERMEY DOUGIE AND SHIRLEY FOR ME LOVE AND MISS YOU .       JERRIE DALE

Buddy,

Hey there big brother I haven't been able to get on here and write you. I have been thinking alot about you here lately and I have been talking about you alot. This week it has really felt like summer and I have been missing you because I know summer was your favorite time of the year. Lexi is getting so big and she is little miss attitude. Thing's just keep getting worse with Samantha, she never has nothing for those kid's and never take's them to the doctor's. I know if you were here thing's wouldn't be this bad for them. I want to help but I know Samantha wouldn't let me get Lexi but she know's I hate her. It seem's like all bad thing's only happen to good people. I don't know anymore hopefully thing's will get better. Your tombstone look's so good. It was the final step to knowing that you were really gone and I think that's why we all put it off for so long. It still is pretty. I would love to have you here again. Love and miss you.

                                                MICHELLE

BUDDY

STOPPING BY TO TELL YOU I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU , SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER AND MY FAVORITE TIME OF THE YEAR FALL WILL SOON BE HERE.I REALLY MISS YOU IN THESE TIMES OF THE YEAR,COOKOUTS DON'T FEEL THE SAME I JUST THINK ABOUT ALL THE TIMES YOU AND PHILLIP MANNED THE GRILL BECAUSE YOU BOTH THOUGHT YOU WERE MASTER CHEFS. IT WAS ALL GOOD WHEN IT WAS DONE. REMEMBER THE THANKSGIVING DINNER WE COOKED AND YOU AND GRAMPS AND PHILLIP WENT TO TRIPS WHILE WE COOKED AND YOU GOT REAL DRUNK AND CAME HOME AND ATE  THEN GOT SICK IN THE BATHROOM SINK AND I HAD TO UNCLOG IT I COULD HAVE KICKED YOUR BUTT. I WAS SO MAD I SAID I WASN'T GOING TO COOK ANYMORE THANKSGIVING MEALS BUT WE DID. I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE THE TIMES AGAIN EVEN IF I DID GET MAD AT YOU AT LEAST YOU WOULD BE HERE. AS USUAL SAMNTHA LIED TO ME SAID SHE HAD TO GO TO THE DOCTOR AND COULD I GET LEXI OFF THE BUS SAID SHE HAD A DRS APPOINTMENT BUT SHE WENT STRAIGHT TO THERESA'S AND NEVER TOOK CHRIS AT ALL HE WAS AT A NEIGHBORS HOUSE ALL WEEKEND SHE NEVER CALLED OR ANYTHING UNTIL MONDAY SHE CAME AND PICKED LEXI UP AT AROUND 3 NEVER EVEN CAME TO EXPLAIN WHY SHE DIDN'T COME GET ALEXIS, SAME OLD STUFF NO FOOD OR SUPERVISION. HOPEFULLY IT  WILL CHANGE SOON.  I LOVE YOU SON AND I KEEP YOU IN MY THOUGHT ALL DAY AND NIGHT LOVE MOM

God’s wisdom is something mysterious that goes

deep into the interior of his purposes.  You don’t

find it lying around on the surface.  It’s not the

latest message, but more like the oldest-what

God determined as the way to bring out his best

in us, long before we ever arrived on the scene.

                   1 Corinthians 2:7 

Buddy here its been 3 long years since you went to be with the lord. and there has been so much water under the bridge, nothing has changed for your kids they still have to live like shit since you have been gone and i am so sick of all of the shit she keeps doing, the kids never have the essentials things they need like food and clothig and adult supervision, bt i know you and the Lord are watching over them and trying to keep them as safe as you can. any way I love you and wish you were here.we went to the sweet corn festval tonight yea hah bi thrill I don't know why I do that.it never changes same drunks and same people waling around eating corn and other over priced food. well any way I love you again Mom

Hey I just wanted to say that I miss you so much. Its a beautiful day out and I have your sugarbooga with me so we are about to clean out the pool and set it up.  This weekend we were in pittsburgh for the 4th and the fireworks there were amazing it something that I am sure you would of loved to see. I know that if you were here we would of been there together looking at them with the kids and enjoying all that the city had to offer....like a cold beer by the river and watching the boat races. Peggy will be in next week so we are going back to the city for a day or two to visit the zoo and the museums. Even though you will not be there you will be in my thoughts all day long. Next year is going to be great we (me and Peg) are taking Lexi with us to florida on vacation. She will love it. She has never seen the ocean yet and that was one thing that I know you loved was the water especially the ocean so we want to show her why loved it and also I am an ocean and beach kinda person myself so I also am excited. Well I am busy here today like I said with the pool. So Love Ya and Miss Ya.

                                                                            Tina

IF ONLY DREAMS COULD COME TRUE IF WE COULD PICK AND CHOOSE WHAT ONES WE WANT TO BE TRUE. I WOULD BE SO HAPPY I WISH THAT I COULD DREAM LIKE TINA DID AND FEEL THAT WAY, I DO WHEN I THINK OF YOU BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE THERE IS JUST SO MUCH MISSING I AM LIKE TINA ITS JUST NOT THE SAME ANY MORE. COME HOME BUDDY PLEASE COME HOME I LOVE YOU.AND I NEED YOU TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE. SOMEDAY, I JUST KEEP TELLING MYSELF SOMEDAY!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up today from the most wonderful dream and I felt my heart break all over again. I dreamed that you were still alive and though a little broken you were still there to hug and kiss and talk to.  I dreamed that they told us you were gone by mistake and you were in a hospital unconscious  and they didn't know who you were.  When you woke up you told them who you were and they called us right away and me and mom and bubby went to pick you up and there you were standing outside waiting for us to pick you up with the biggest smile on your face. And the sun was shining so bright and we were so happy that it was you and you were there and finally things felt right again. The next thing that I know we are driving and your sitting there with us and it felt so good. I know mom was happy for the first time and our world seemed complete again.....for a moment.....then I woke up and the first thing I wanted to do was call the closest hospital then reality hit and I felt my heart break again just like it did the first time. God how wish it were true that you were still here. Everyday is still a struggle for mom and I have to continually remind myself from time to time that you are really gone. This is one of those days and it hurts so bad. Today is fathers day and if you were still here I am sure that we would be cooking out somewhere but since your not we can't seem to get it together so we will all do our own thing. Our hearts are missing such a big piece it's hard on these sunny days. I would give anything to keep dreaming like last night even if it meant that my heart would break into a million pieces everytime I woke up it felt so good.  Well I love you so much and We will see each other again in time and we will all be together again.  HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

                                                                    MAY 26 08                                            AS I WAS SAYING IF THE DEER DON'T EAT THE ROSE BUSH   OFF THEY SHOULD GROW REAL PRETTY CAUSE THEY SHOULD GROW 12 FEET TALL IT'S A CLIMBING BUSH THATS WHAT YOUR MOM WANTED PLANTED THERE IT WILL TAKE AWHILE FOR IT TO TAKE OFF BUT WHEN IT DOES IT SHOULD BE  BEAUTIFUL  WITH ALL THE PINK ROSES BLOOM OUT ON IT  AND WHEN MERL GETS THE BENCH PUT DOWN THERE TO SIT ON IT WILL GROW UP AROUND IT HOPEFULLY   WELL I WILL WRITE LATER JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW WE ALL MISS YOU BUDDY                                                                                                    

Buddy,                                     May 21,2008

Hey there big brother just had a few minute's so I thought I would sit down and write you a little letter. Peggy was just in and it was cool so see her again. We all went up to the graveyard and we all went to pick out your headstone I think we got a pretty good one. That make's me feel alittle bit better. They are going to set it sometime after father's day and Peggy is going to fly back in when they do. I went to the fortune teller and she told me lot's of thing's. Thing's I didn't want to hear but I guess I will have to deal with it and she also told me good thing's. I love and miss you alot.

Buddy,

This picture made me think of you.  Gosh, I miss you so much.  I know you are in heaven now with Jesus.  I'm selfish and just wish you were still here with us.  I can only thank God he allowed you the time He did.  You accomplished so much in such a short time.  You touched so many lives..incredible :)  And that was you Buddy just being YOU.  How I miss you smile and laughs.  I remember no matter what was going on you always lightened the mood, knew what to say or not say.  I guess this hole in my heart will never be healed ~ still I'm grateful for the times we had the memories I will always hold dear. You may be gone but YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN!!  XOXOXOXOXOX  

Buddy,                             April 23, 2008

Hey big brother just thought I would sit down and write you a letter. Well where to start, I guess as you have seen Tim quit his job and that was ok with me as long as he got another one but that not happening and we are struggling to get through the month. The tension is so bad that you can feel it. I think what I need to do is kick everyone out of here until they get job's. I have four kid's to support and can't be worrying about everyone else. They need to grow up and get a life. I need to get crazy and take my house back and kick everyone out and then I will go get a job. I feel like throwing my hand's up and saying screw everything I can't do it all on my own. I love Tim and just wish he would get his priorities in line. I don't know what to do anymore. Love and miss you alot wish you were here so I could talk to you. I had alot of fun for my b-day got to spend it with my family and that made me happy.

HEY BUDDY BUBBY'S BABY BOY WAS BORNED ON THE 30TH OF MARCH NOT THE 28TH. HE WAS BORNED ON PAPAW SHORTER'S BIRTHDAY.HE IS CUTE AS A BUTTON TO .....HE WILL BE A LITTLE HEART BREAKER WHEN HE GETS OLDER YOU CAN BET ON THAT  JUST LIKE MASON.I SAW HIM ON MERL'S CAMERA AND ON THE COMPUTER AT MICHELLE'S HOUSE. HE HAS REAL CHUBBY CHEEKS YOU CAN SEE GRANDMA SHORTER'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY IN HIM.MAYBE THIS BABY WILL HELP YOUR MOM HEAL SOME FROM THE PAIN OF LOOSING YOU.EVEN JUST A LITTLE BIT WILL HELP...LOVE AND MISS YOU WATCH OUT OVER ALL OF THEM.

Buddy,                         April 2,2008

Just had a minute thought I would sit down and write alittle something.  Bubby finally got his son and boy does he look like Bubby. He was born on March 30,2008. His name is Toby Aiden Shorter.  He is so cute. He looks like the shorter's that for sure. Love and miss u alot.

March 31, 2008

 

Go Rest High On That Mountain

I know your life on earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain

Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son

Oh how we cried the day you left us
We gathered 'round your grave to grieve
I wish I could see the Angel's faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing

Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son
Go to heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son



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BUDDY,

I SIT HERE IN AWE OF IT ALL I LOOK AT YOUR PICTURES AND I CAN HARDLY BELEIVE YOUR NOT HERE. IF IT WASN'T FOR THE DEEP ACHE IN MY HEART I WOULD ALMOST CHOOSE TO BELEIVE YOU ARE STILL HERE. YOU WERE SUCH A GOOD PERSON. AND SO SO LOVED BY MANY.I MISS YOUR SMILE AND THE WAY YOU COULD MAKE US ALL LAUGH. I MISS ALL YOU KIDS BEING TOGETHER ARGUEING AND ACTING CRAZY, WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO HEAR IT ALL AGAIN.I LOOK IN YOUR EYES AND I TRY TO FIND A REASON WHY, BUT I JUST CAN'T  SEEM TO FIGURE IT OUT, WERE YOU PUNISHING YOURSELF I KNOW YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME YOU DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE ANY MORE. I HOPE YOU WERE AT LEAST A LITTLE HAPPY. I KNOW THE KIDS MADE YOU HAPPY. I HAVE SO MUCH RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND TONIGHT, BUT I AM GOING TO REST IT ALL FOR NOW, I LOVE YOU AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE SAFE. SEE YOU IN HEAVEN . MOM

Buddy I promise you when the spring comes your headstone will be set. I like Michelle wonder where you would be and what you would be doing today. You are3 never far from my thoughts or my heart. you are there when i get up and when I go to bed. and sometimes in between. I love you.

Buddy,                                February 27, 2008

Happy Brithday!!!! I miss you so much. Don't know really what to say, just a really sad day. I can already tell I am going to have a bad day. I wonder what you would be doing today if you were still here. Well I kind of know what you would be doing today. I miss you so much... Baby boy shorter will be here soon. I can't wait. I am so excited. Love you and miss you......

Buddy,                                   February 24, 2008

Hey big brother boy do I miss you so much. I am sorry I was going to get you a tombstone but I had to pay a bunch of bill's. I hate knowing you don't have a tombstone. I cheerish Bubby, Tina, Peggy, Mom, And Dad. It's getting close to your brithday. Man you would have been old lol. Not as old as Tim still. Three more day's. Love ya miss ya too.

                                         Feb. 21, 2008

Hey its been a long year but we have gotten through another one together as a family. It is supposed to get easier but your birthday always makes us all remember what we lost when you had to leave. I am trying to get by with remembering your beautiful smile and infectious laugh. God how you could just brighten up any room with your laugh. I wish that you could help mom and michelle find a little comfort. I worry about them so much and I am sure you know why. Bubby is about to have the new baby soon so just watch in on them to help them get through it with some peace. I know that they are worried about it because of all the problems with Danielle. I know that it will all turn out ok and I can't wait to see that sweet little guy and finally get to wrap my arms around him. Bubby  is so proud of it and he's not even here yet. I am sure that you will be there with us all when we welcome him here. Alexis is getting older by the day and her Birthday was quiet and nice. She was very happy. I know that you were here that day. School is hard for her. She is so bullheaded just like you and wants to do her own thing and not follow the rules. I think...well I hope she settles down soon. I kiss her all the time for you. Well kisses to you and everyone else up there. I miss you so much and I know I will see you again someday....so until then help me to remember all the good times we had as a family.

I Love You.

p.s.

 here is a pic of Jt and Lex right before the christmas program. Everyone thinks they are twins. (They do look alot alike.)

Buddy,                                             February 12, 2007

Hey big brother just thinking about you and thought I would sit down and write you alittle note. Your birthday is coming up very soon. I catch myself sitting and thinking man I wonderwhat Buddy would be doing right now if he was still here with us. You are missed so much and the hurt seem's like it will never end. It like a big part of all of our live's are gone. I mean we keep doing the thing's that need to be done but you can tell something isn't right any more. I can just look in people's eye's like mom and Bubby and Tina and Peggy and see a big empty space. They are probably thinking the same thing I am. It seem's like the world for us is on a stand still while everyone else around us is going on with there life. Your little girl is getting so big and she is a brat. She look's alot like you and Tina and Peggy. She is getting pretty chunky lol. Well I love and miss you very much.

WELL HERE I SIT AGAIN THINKING OF YOU, I AM READY TO LEAVE TOMMORROW FOR MY TRIP TO WISCONSIN, NOT SURE IF I REALLY WANT TO GO.I JUST WANT TO STAY HOME AND NEVER LEAVE. I HAVE BEEN THINKING TODAY ABOUT DOUGIE ALOT AND THIS SONG WAS ONE HE INSITED I LISTEN TO ,THE LAST TIME I WAS WITH HIM.HE SAID THIS SONG WAS SO GOOD AND I NEVER DREAMED THAT THIS WOULD BE THE LAST SONG THAT I WOULD LISTEN TO WITH HIM. LIFE IS SO SHORT YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN AND WHERE ITS ALL OVER OR EVEN WHO IT WILL BE, WE TAKE SO MUCH FOR GRANTED. I SURE WISH I WOULD HAVE HUGGED YOU THE LAST TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER. INSTEAD OF JUST WAVING AT YOU. I AM SURE YOU KNOW ALL THE THINGS GOING ON WITH YOUR KIDS RIGHT NOW. WHAT DO WE DO, THEY NEED THEIR MOM BUT SHE IS JUST TO INVOLVED IN HER OWN PITIFUL LIFE TO SEE WHAT SHE IS DOING TO THE KIDS I KNOW SHE LOVES THEM BUT ITS NOT ENOUGH. TOMMORROW IS YOUR LITTLE GIRLS BIRTHDAY, SHE IS HERE WITH ME FOR NOW, WE ARE GOING TO HAVE HER A PARTY, AS USUAL HER MOM IS NOT GOING TO. ITS THE SAME THING EVERY YEAR . BUT SHE SURE HAD HERSELF A NICE BIG PARTY AT THE BAR FOR HERSELF ON YOUR DAUGHTERS MONEY. OH WELL I WILL BE HERE FOR THEM AS LONG AS I CAN.I HOPE WE MAKE HER DAY SPECIAL FOR HER. SHE IS EXCITED TINA IS TAKING CUPCAKES TO SCHOOL TO SHARE WITH HER FRIENDS. I LOVE YOU BUDDY AND I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH. SOMEDAY SOON I HOPE I WILL BE WITH YOU ALL THERE IN GODS GLORY. I LOVE YOU AND I WILL TALK TO YOU AGAIN SOON

Buddy,                              February 3, 2008

Hello big brother .... I finally got home yesterday from having Addison in the hospital because she was really sick... They had her on alot of oxygen... It had me scared, they kept her for seven day's... I don't think me or her either one got alot of rest because the nurse's was in and out of there alot cheking her oxygen level and giving her medicine....I am so glad she is alright... I can't believe it is already 2008 wow where has the time gone seem's like it disappear's fast... I love and miss you alot.....