Rodney (Buddy) Allen Chavera

My Little Girl - Tim McGraw Added by Site Admin on 2006-10-03 05:48:33

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Verse 1:
Gotta hold on easy as I let you go.
Gonna tell you how much I love you, though you think you already know.
I remember I thought you looked like an angel wrapped in pink so soft and warm.
You've had me wrapped around your finger since the day you were born.

Chorus:
Beautiful baby from the outside in.
Chase your dreams but always know the road that'll lead you home again.
Go on, take on this whole world.
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl.

Verse 2:
When you were in trouble that crooked little smile could melt my heart of stone.
Now look at you, I've turned around and you've almost grown.
Sometimes you're asleep I whisper "I Love You!" in the moonlight at your door.
As I walk away, I hear you say, "Daddy Love You More!".

(Repeat Chorus)

Verse 3:
Someday, some boy will come and ask me for your hand.
But I won't say "yes" to him unless I know, he's the half
that makes you whole, he has a poet's soul, and the heart of a man's man.
I know he'll say that he's in love.
But between you and me. He won't be good enough!

(Repeat Chorus)

Buddy,                                       March 24,2007

I heard this song that mom put on here for you. When I heard it, it made me think of the way you felt about Lexie. Now I can't stop listening to it. I know your here with us helping us through this ordeal with dad. Please continue to be by our side's and his side helping all of along and guiding us through it all. I miss you so much. I wish you could be here with us. I still have alot of question's about the day you died but I will never get answers for them and I think that's why I am so angry still. Well gonna go for now see you at the end make sure your there to meet me at the gate so I won't be so scared. I love you and miss you very much.

MICHELLE FOUND THIS SONG AND WE THINK THIS HOW YOU WOULD FEEL ABOUT YOUR LITTLE GIRL, AND ITS SO TRUE YOU WOULD FEEL EXACTLY LIKE THIS SONG SAYS.THIS IS TO YOUR "MY LITTLE GIRL"  IT REALLY MADE ME CRY SO I KNOW THIS IS SO TRUE. I LOVE YOU BUDDY AND I KNOW THAT HAD YOU LIVED YOU WOULD HAVE PROTECTED HER WITH YOUR LIFE YOU WERE A GOOD DADDY, SEE YOU SOON , MOM

GOOD MORNING MY SON, I KNOW ITS BEEN A WEEK OR SO SINCE I BEEN HERE BUT YOU KNOW WHATS BEEN GOING ON HERE . I MISS YOU I WANT TO TRY AND GET ALEXIS AND CHRIS THIS WEEKEND SO THAT THEY WON'T FEEL SO LEFT OUT WE HAVE JUST HAD SO MUCH GOING ON HERE AND ITS NOT BEEN EASY ALEXIS THINKS I DON'T LOVE HER ANYMORE SHE IS ALWAYS TRYING TO LAY THE GUILT TRIP ON ME AND IT REALLY WORKS BUT I WON'T TELL HER THAT.SORRY WE DIDN'T GET THERE ON THE DAY OF YOUR BIRTHDAY BUT YOU KNOW I WAS THERE 2 DAYS BEFORE WITH FLOWERS FOR YOU. I AM GOING TO VISIT YOU OFTEN THIS SUMMER. YOU ARE SO MISSED THAT ITS UNREAL I SEE GUYS STANDING AROUND WITH THEIR BACKS TO ME AND AN ORANGE T SHIRT ON AND I SEE YOU I GET A SUDDEN KNOT IN MY STOMACH. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS SON MOM

Buddy,                                   March 15,2007

Well dad got his surgery done and got through it alright. Alot is going on with him and I know in my heart your there holding his hand and helping him through it all and us to. So just keep on leadig him down the right road and kiss him on the head and let him know you love him. Oh yeah Addison said se was talking to you last night. Well love and miss you big brother.

BUDDY

I KNOW YOU WILL BE THERE WITH US I HEARD YOU CALL MY NAME TONIGHT AND YESTERDAY SOMEONE TAPPED ME ON THE SHOULDER 2 2 TIMES AND I KNOW IT IS YOU UP THERE. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND OH BY THE WAY I BROUGHT YOUR KIDS HERE TO SWIM YESTERDAY AND THAT LITTLE CHICK OF YOURS IS A BRAT I WONDER WHY SHE ACTS LIKE THAT LOL SHE IS YOU ALL OVER AGAIN TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE I WOULDN'T LET HER STAY. OH WELL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU

Buddy,                                            March 12,2007

I just wanted to come here tonight to let you know dad is having his surgery tomorrow. I want you to be there to hold his hand and make sure he get's through it all ok and give him the strength to go through with what need's to be done. I know you can't be here but be here with all of us in spirt. I love you big brother and miss you so much!!!!!!

BUDDY PLEASE BE THERE IN SPIRIT FOR THE ONES WHO TRUELY LOVED YOU THEY CAN'T LOSE ANOTHER PERSON IN THEIR LIVES . YOUR DAD IS BEARLY HANGING ON AND SO IS YOUR MOM AND SISTERS AND BUB TO. THEY ARE SO SCARED FOR MERL. YOUR MOM IS BEARLY HANGING ON TO THEY ALL NEED PEACE AND CONFORT RIGHT NOW. PLEASE LET THEM KNOW SOME WAY THAT YOU ARE WATCHING OVER THEM ITS SO SAD TO WATCH THEM SUFFERING LIKE THEY ARE.LIFE CAN BE SO CRUEL AND UN FAIR MOST OF THE TIME.JUST BE WITH THEM AS THEY FACE ANOTHER CRISS IN THEIR LIFES AGAIN,MAYBE THIS ONE WILL HAVE A GOOD OUT COME. LOVE AND MISS YOU BUDDY TELL EVERYONE UP THER WE ALL LOVE AND MISS THEM ALL AND SOME DAY THE CIRCLE WILL BE JOINED AGAIN ..

Buddy,                                                             March 5,2007

Well where to start at. There is so much going on that I am about ready to have a nervous break down. I am so worried about dad I am scared I am going to get that call like what happened with you. I am just so scared for dad. He is not doing so good. I know you have to be there holding his hand because if you weren't I don't think he would have lasted this long. So please Buddy stay there holding his hand and get him through it all and help him make it not only for us his kid's but his grandkid's and mom too. I wouldn't know what to do if something happened to dad. This is when we need you the most you were alway's good with thing's like this. I am trying to be strong but it is really hard to go in there and see him like this. Just be there Buddy with him. Whisper softly in his ear he need's to survive for us. Make him feel peaceful. I miss you so much. I keep thinking back to when I saw your face and your smile and I want to see your smile again. I am so sorry for all the hate I have in me but I just can't help it. Well I am gonna go. I love you and miss you dearly.

 I would really like to know why it is that you hate me so much. I remember staying at you'r house when i was younger i have such good memories of staying at you'r farm and i looked up to you' how did i know the one thing i had to do was date you'r son to make you hate me more thing anyone? I have so many good memories of you and you'r family, I just wish you would take five min of you'r time and think about how losing buddy has messed my world up,cause i think about where you are coming from why do you think i haven't took chris or lexie from you cause you are all they have left of their daddy and i don't want to take that away from them so i put their feeling's before mine and i just want the same from you so is there anyway we can put our feelinfs aside and think about Chris and lexie?

HI BUDDY , JUST THOUGHT I'D  SAY A FEW THINGS TO YOU TONIGHT BEFORE I GO TO BED.WHEN YOU WERE GROWING UP WE HAD A FEW TOUGH TIMES, IT DIDN'T MEAN I DIDN'T LOVE YOU ANY LESS ITS JUST I WANTED YOU TO GROW UP TO BE A GOOD PERSON AND GUESS WHAT YOU DID, YOU HAD A FEW FLAWS BUT DON'T WE ALL. I WAS VERY PROUD YOU WERE MY SON AND I WAS GLAD TO BE YOUR MOTHER.WE HAD OUR SHARE OF ARGUMENTS BUT WE ALWAYS SURVIVED THEM AND I MADE YOU WHAT EVER  YOU WANTED TO EAT ,I JUST FOUND A PACKET OF SOME SPICE MIX YOU GOT SO YOU COULD COOK US SOME CHINESE FOOD I THINK I WILL SAVE IT FOREVER YOU REALLY SHOUD HAVE BEEN A CHINA MAN THE WAY YOU LOVE CHINESE FOOD I LOVE YOU AND GOODNIGHT.

Hey daddy we miss you so much on you'r birthday. we wish you was here we would love to give you one of the biggest hugs ever!!!!!!!!!!!!! we love you daddy HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Happy Birthday Brother. I wish you peace and happiness today on your birthday. I hope that you are looking down on the kids today and are glowing with pride. I miss you more everyday and wish you were here for me to just hug one last time. Anyway Happy Birthday and I Love Ya.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

I know your not alone today so tell the others thanks for being there with you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND I'M TRYING TO BE GOOD I LOVE YOU

  HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY I LOVE AND MISS YOU .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SON , A FATHER, A BROTHER AND A FRIEND. WE LOVE YOU DEARLY AND HERE IS YOUR PICTURE

BUDDY I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WE VISITED YOU TODAY AND IT WAS HARD . I LEFT YOU SOME FLOWERS AND A BALLOON , I GUESS THATS THE ONLY WAY I CAN SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU NOW . I'M GOING TO TRY TO PICK UP THE KIDS FOR A FEW HOURS TOMMORROW AND BRING THEM OUT TO SEE YOU . IT WILL BE HARD FOR THEM TOO. I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I KNOW THEY DO TOO. SO I HOPE WE WILL SEE YOU TOMMORROW. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEARLY  HEY REMEMBER THIS PICTURE SHE IS SO CUTE AND YOU ARE TOO.

Buddy,                                                     2/27/07

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! I wanted to be the first to tell u on ur birthday. I hope ur having a blast and having lot's of fun. I want you to help dad have the strength and courage to get through everything he is going to have to go through. I am so scared we r going to loose him and if we did I would just go insane. We as a family have been through so much in the past few year's. I wish we could just have a break. It seem's like we have had nothing but bad luck and I am so angry still and just getting more madder as the day's go on. I just don't understand why all of this is happening to us. Bubby is trying to be brave but I know he is scared for dad just like the rest of us. I am trying to think positive about everything but it is kinda of hard. Well love you and miss you big brother have fun today. I know you r not going to get into to much trouble grandma is up there to keep u and Jeremy inline so walk it boy!!!!! I am going to attach this picture because this is another day we all missed you and cryed cause you weren't there. This picture is your family on Tina's wedding day. We were all very sad and wished you could have been there just like now I wish u could be there on the day of dad's surgery. I miss ur big shoulder. Love you brother!!!!

BUDDY, I AM HERE TO TO TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE SO MISSED. WE WERE TALKING ABOUT THE TIME YOU AND TONY WANTED TO BEAT BUTCH UP AT THE NEW YEARS PARTY AT HELENS HOUSE IN FOUR STATES JUST BECAUSE HE WAS A RED NECK, THATS FUNNY BECAUSE YOU IN A LOT OF WAYS WAS A RED NECK ALSO, A MEXICAN RED NECK ,LOL. I WASTED SO MUCH OF OUR  TIME TOGETHER .BUT IF WE KNEW HOW SOME THINGS TURN OUT THEN WE WOULD DO 6THINGS DIFFERENTLY, YOU SURE WERE THE BIGGEST JOY IN OUR LIVES YOU ALWAYS MADE US LAUGH, EVEN WHEN I WAS MAD AT YOU I WASN'T REALLY MAD I COULDN'T STAY MAD AT YOU AND I COULDN'T STAND IT WHEN YOU WERE MAD AT ME. I LOVE YOU DEAR SON

I AM NOT AFRAID TO PUT MY NAME AT THE TOP OF THIS MEMORY, I KNOW WHO XOXOXOXOX IS , I'M NOT FIGHTING ANYMORE SOME PEOPLE NEVER CHANGE AND THERE IS NO SINCE IN TRYING TO MAKE THEM, I AM SO LAST RIGHT NOW AND AFRAID AND SO DESPERATE RIGHT NOW, I KNOW YOU LOVED MERL DESPITE WHAT SOME PEOPLE SAY. I COULD USE YOUR BIG SHOULDER RIGHT NOW AS WELL AS THE REST OF US.. BUDDY YOU WERE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERSON YOU HAD YOUR WAYS BUT WE LOVED YOU DEARLY AND YOU WERE LIKE OUR BIG ROCK LISTEN TO ME I'M THE PARENT AND I NEED YOU , BUT I GUESS THATS WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT IT IS UNCONDIONAL EVEN THOUGH WE ALL MAY NOT SEE EYE TO EYE ALL THE TIME WE ALAWYS KNEW WHERE TO GO WHEN WE WERE IN ANY KIND OF TROUBLE,PAIN OR JUST NEEDED SOMEONE TO LISTEN , WE WERE A FAMILY THATS WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT. I LOVE YOU SON AND IT SEEMS LIKE THE YEARS ARE SO QUICKLY PASSING IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY YOU LEFT US BUT YET SO LONG AGO, I WISH YOU COULD COME HOME AND BE WITH US AGAIN . SEE YOU SOON

buddy,                                                            2/21/07

i am just writing to ask you to tell the big guy upstairs to let everything be alright with my dad and help guide him in the right direction and make all the right choices. taking us into consideration. i wish he would give us a break we have been through so much in the past few years. seems like all we have been having is bad luck. this is when we need you here buddy.so u can be strong for us. we r so lost without u here. well just watch over dad for us. love and miss you bunches.

hey buddy just wanted to stop in and say hello and i miss u sooosooosooso much! your birthday in in a few days 32 wow lol just kidin the kids said they wanted to go ice skating for your birthday !! man does lexie miss you samantha told me she said she wanted to go back to when she was little when u was there it broke my heart i didnt even know what to say i have like a mental block when it comes to things like that i dont know what to say i feel bad bc i didnt really say much its just so crazy without you well me and aunt shirley ann talked a few times in e-mail of course  i think its just to hard to face each other i dont know but we kinda talked bout things but i do love her and miss her and u n the family alot !! i wonder what we would have done for your birthday im 21 now ! remember u wouldnt go to the bar with me because u knew you would end up getin into a fight over me lol you was like my bodyguard lol i love u and miss u now ur my angel xoxox Tanya

BUDDY,                                                      2/14/2007

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY BIG BROTHER! I WANTED TO BE THE FIRST ONE TO TELL YOU THAT. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. IT SEEMS LIKE SINCE YOU HAVE PASSED ON EVERYTHING THAT CAN GO WRONG HAS WENT WRONG. YOU WERE THE ROCK OF OUR FAMILY. I DON'T KNOW WHO IS GOING TO BE THERE FOR US WHEN DAD DIES. I GUESS BUBBY WILL HAVE TO TAKE YOUR PLACE IN THAT DEPARTMENT. I LOVED YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. I KNOW YOU LOVED ME TOO. IF I EVER HAD A PROBLEM OR JUST FELT LIKE TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING I ALWAYS CAME TOO YOU. YOU NEVER TURNED YOUR HEAD YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE WITH AN OPEN HEART AND A SHOULDER FOR ME TO LEAN ON. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOUR GONE. IT STILL SEEMS SO UNREAL I AM STILL WAITING FOR YOU TO CALL ME AND SAY HA HA GOOD JOKE HUH. WELL YOUR BRITHDAY IS COMING UP REALLY SOON I WILL BE UP TO VISIT YOU. I LOVE YOU MY DEAR BIG BROTHER. REST IN PEACE AND ALWAYS BE WATCHING OVER US.

BUDDY, ITS ALMOST YOUR BIRTHDAY OH HOW I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO CELEBRATE IT WITH US. WE HAD LEXI 'S BIRTHDAY PARTY AT [KREPPS] - BEST WESTERN MOTEL SHE WAS HAPPY. SHE IS GOING TO BE A BEAUTTIFUL ONE WHEN SHE IS OLDER. I AM JUST GLAD ALL THIS ARGUEING IS OVER .I THINK WE JUST HAD SOME STUFF ON OUR MINDS THAT NEEDED TO BE SAID . AND I KNOW YOU SAW WHAT THEY WROTE TO ME AND MICHELLE . WE KNOW YOU LOVED HER , AND THEY WERE ONLY TRYING TO HURT HER . BUT I PROMISE YOU THIS WE WON'T EVER LET THIS BECOME A FIGHTING SIGHT THAT IS NOT WHY ITS HERE ITS TO HONOR YOU AND SHARE OUR LOVE AND MEMORIES OF YOU AND WE ALL KNOW THERE ARE ALOT OF MEMORIES . I LOVE YOU DEARLY AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY. TAKE MERL BY THE HAND WHEN ITS TIME TO PASS FOR HE LOVED YOU MORE THAN YOU EVER KNEW HE JUST NEVER SHOWED IT AND NOW HE REGRETS IT HE CRIES FOR YOU ALOT HES SO HURT . PLEASE IF ITS POSSIBLE BE THERE TO GREET HIM HE LOVES YOU DEARLY ALSO. GIVE HIM THE CHANCE IF YOU CAN SO HE CAN TELL YOU NOW. HE WAITED TO LATE AND SOME PEOPLE DO THAT. I LOVE YOU AND WILL SEE YOU SOON.

Buddy,                               January 29,2007

Oh my gosh where has this year gone. Your brithday is coming up real soon. I miss you so much word's can not even explain. I get so upset and mad at all those guy's I would just like to go down there and beat them. Tanya with her smartass mouth. She better realize she's not messing around with sane person. I get so irritated at the drop of a hat anymore and blowup on just about anything. I just have so much anger inside me and I need to vent it out so let her run her mouth some more. I just need you to help me get through this. It seem's like the longer your gone the more mad I get. I don't know why. Well love you and miss you alot.